Remembering Mom

I knew that today was the anniversary of my Mom's passing. I was reminded of it recently as I heard the news that a former manager had passed away after a battle with cancer. In a small way she was always a bit of a mother figure, giving me my first break of a real solid job after college.

I had thought about today's anniversary but it had kind of been pushed back in my mind behind thoughts of my sleep quest with Cameron, concerns about my work closing and all the many thoughts that dash through my head on a daily basis.

Of all things I was in the car on my way to Walmart (how suburban of me) when I realized the song on the radio. It was one that I first heard in the days after Mom passed, "Calling all angels". The lyrics hit home then and still do. In the five years that have passed, when the song pops up on the radio, I always kind of feel like it's a little sign she's watching over me.

I still can't believe that it's been five years since she left us. I still can't believe that she's not here to see my boys and to know them in person. And yet I have faith that she does know them, I'm sure she's the force that has protected Caleb through his "danger boy" years. And I have high hopes that she is going to do the same for Cameron who is so intent on following in his big brother's footsteps, already crawling and trying to pull himself up on things.

I miss you today Mom. I wish you were here but I am grateful that you are in a better place. I'm glad that you are not trapped in a body that might have restricted you and kept you alive but miserable.

CC

Sitting up!!!

Well, over the weekend, Cameron got himself sitting up a few times. He got better and better at it and was enjoying banging a rattle and such on the floor. He toppled over a few times but did good about getting back up. That's good considering he either had a cold or was teething since Saturday. Runny nose, drooling and kind of cranky. I kind of kept watching for crawling that I didn't think about him sitting up soon.

And he slept even worse than before. So tired. But, Carey has a good perspective that this will probably continue through at least the first year. So, I guess I should keep that idea in mind and than I will be VERY pleasantly surprised if we luck out before then.

Fingers crossed that the dear one does not sleep all day at daycare and get his patterns mixed up. May have to call today and check to encourage daycare provider not to slack off and be lazy. Hopefully I won't have to threaten to call her house all night if Cameron keeps us up. Kidding!

Caleb had a fun weekend with going to a daycare friend's birthday party. He was a good boy at it and I was grateful as another mom had her hands full with a toddler who kept wanting to run away from the swimming activity and into the street! Yikes!!! It was nice to sit and relax for a bit. The calm before the storm of Cameron being a toddler.

Well, hope everyone is doing well. Take care,

CC

Will I EVER sleep again????

Oy, I am so tired of being tired. I know that a good friend of mine said that establishing a sleep schedule with a baby is an ongoing thing and not a one time goal. Man, that is true in our house. The routine still varies widely. Some nights some peace can be bought with the pacifier, other nights not. In the wee hours of the night, it's just easier many times to provide a bottle and get back to bed sooner. And ensure that the whole house isn't awakened with a crying baby.

Perhaps I would not be so frustrated if it were not for my new arch nemesis. There is a woman at work who in many ways is lovely. But, her baby who is younger than Cameron is sleeping through the night. Which she has bragged about several times. I've done my best to graciously congratulate her.

It's getting to the point that helpful advice like "you should feed him more" is not very welcome. Every evening the boy is a chowhound and puts away quite a feast. I figure each night, "There, that should buy us more hours". But nope, the last few nights I'm seeing the little stinkerbutt earlier and earlier. He's lucky he's so cute.

Well, I suppose I've vented enough about my ongoing sleep obsession. I do remind myself that at just around 5 months, Cameron is still young and he's doing pretty good. I still have faith that we'll get there eventually. At some point we will be sleeping more and this will start to fade into a fuzzy, sleepy memory. And don't anybody tell me otherwise because I don't want to know!!!

Hope everyone is doing well. Best wishes and good rest to all,

CC

Creep, creep, creep and going backwards

Well, Cameron is still working on his moving. He almost tries to sit up as well. He have a tendency to move backwards in his efforts as so many babies do. But it is enough to get from place to place. If you put a new toy down on the floor, he is eager to get to it. I did start one bad thing in that I let him crumple up a newspaper ad which he enjoyed a lot. Now though he wants to grab all paper and crumble it up.

Yesterday when I went to get the boys at daycare, Caleb ran to me for a hug. Little Cameron was hanging out on the floor doing some exploring and he looked up and cried a bit. I felt like he wanted to run to Mommy too. Poor little sweetie.

Caleb has been really testing the limits lately. Trying out some sassing and back talking. He lost his favorite tv show last night. We'll see if it was enough of a wake up call to have a better evening today.

In other news of course we are watching Weather Channel more often with all the storm activity. Fay went overhead and caused some power outages but thankfully that was about all. Hopefully the other storms stay far away!!!

Well, hope everyone is doing well. Take care and talk to you soon.

CC

P.S. Will post new pictures soon!